i just had an unpleasant and unwanted "encounter" with a person whom i'll describe as a bitch (someone from the hiker's club) whom i've known for about a total of 72 hours, since Saturday. i wanted to call my sister to chat about it - you know, get reassurance that what she did was in fact, bitchy - but i think i'm being silly. it's gonna be awkward when i go hiking again. i want to avoid her. i didn't come all this way (to korea) to get involved with someone that will bring stress and drama into my life so i don't know why i feel a little bit worried that i made wrong decision when i told her no rather than feel thankful that i made exactly the most perfect decision to nip that bitch in the bud... i guess it is hard to say no, even when it's the right choice and especially when you get shit for saying no ... her shitty reaction is proof positive (and in some backward way it can be viewed like a reward for me) that i made exactly the right decision, but it doesn't make it any easier to handle!!!! ugh. i guess this is teaching me to grow thicker skin. when i decided to reach out and make new friends and meet new people i knew there would be speed bumps along the way. this is one of those speed bumps. my goal: to keep on going. i've got a purpose and a goal and i can't let a bitch of a speed bump get in the way of my goals. my skin grows thick and i move on.
oh, boo hoo, someone said something shitty to me. what am i gonna do? wait for my mommy to rub my boo boo and give me loving reassurance. although that sounds like a good idea, it would just take too long. i'm in korea for crying out loud. time to take a new approach: stay cool. don't respond to her hostility. but in my head i can tell her what ever i want, like, 'you'll get over it, now stop stalking me with your text messages!' or wait, here's a better one 'go take a hike!'
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Time to look through my song-lyric library. Oh, look! There's Tom Petty singing,
"You need rhino skin
if you're gonna begin
to walk through this world.
You need elephant balls
if you don't want to crawl
on your hands through this world."
sounds like u got this one figured out all by yourself...HOWEVER...i would like to say how EXCITED i was to hear that you wanted to call ME in your time of need! And you are right, i would have reassured you all those things....you can say no to whomever you wante whenever you want and you should NEVER feel bad about it. AND not all people in this world are meant to get along AND there are plenty of others out there to become friends with...SOOOO...when it is time to go hinking again, just show up as usual and carry one as usual....and just ignore her....(there is a girl at work (the restaurant) who bugs the holly crap out of me...and the only day I work, monday, happens to be with her...SOOO...i do just that...i just ignore her...she talks, i pretend im listening then i move onto something else. i grit my teeth and then thank God i only have to see her for 5 hours a week! I love you!
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